I was living with a guy 3 years ago. Then I thought I was in love for three years with a man and his two children. So I just took care of the kids and the house but after this past christmas he had this idea to make family photos for christmas gifts and I thought that he was going to propose on christmas. And when he didn't I brought it up and he said so mean he would never marry me. So I left chrismas morning I even got raped New years eve because I was homeless. I went back to that guys house and he has 2 girlfriends living with him and some guy. But he offered me my old room temperaraly til I could save up for a better place. Plus I am disabled witha seizure disorder and with the stress being alone is unsafe. I was afraid to be alone then now I beg for it. Now it has been 3.5 months and I can't say for my saftey what has unfolded but that guy has a business that is illeagal and is bad. These girls are mean as hell and the owner just says your a guest o they don't mean anything by it. I can hear them talk shit about me threw the walls it a old mobile home. I want out. I am a recovering Addict and I do okay most of the time well it's just all these people promise to be there to help me do thid or that because I don't have family and frankly I am scared to leave my room. I don't have friends I can trust. That other guy sends his friends to my door for sex but I don't do that anymore but they try anyway. What I do when I have eaten out because I can't be out there to cook and all my only$989 a month is gone I pay a little here but, It's down to the wire Here is the bottom line...There is probable cause for cops to come here and I don't want to go to jail because i can't leave because I don't have the money to move. I feel iminding doom. I have busted my ass this last two-three weeks making a model of myself on modelmayhem and I have excelent referances and a good regular resume but my licence is suspended bucause I had two traffic tickets over two years one I haven't been able to pay. And I have court for the in june. I just need a clean furnised minus space for my dresser with lots of food and no bad people I have no numbers for drug connections so I forsee a complete recovery I just need a/or anyone that can see the faith I still have left it's much but I can work with it. I am still stong and believe that there is a God who will provide me with everything I need not what I want nessaceraly. But, I have to prepare myself because I have considintly be mislead or letdown perhaps I have been asking or approaching the wrong people. I just found this site will pray for a suitable outcome for me before the already evil about continues to break the little of me down further. I am somewhat hopeful. As always, Prepare for the worst, Pray for the Best. To whom ever hear my cry I will not make a mokery of you good will. Please have some faith in me.
